i should have been asleep hours ago. but i stay up — thinking of a world we could have together. maybe this is too direct, but maybe it’s for my own good. to be honest, i’m scared to tell you how i actually feel. are we friends? are lovers? soulmates? none of the above? what are we doing here? i wish i could hop on a plane and explore every piece of you. mind, body, and soul. i want it all. i have never been selfish, but with you, i can’t give it up. i can’t give you up. i almost contemplated saying i love you. is that crazy? probably. but i don’t care. it’s not like it really matters to you. i have never said those words before. but here i am. admitting all my truths i know i will regret saying when the sun rises.