i am afraid

i am so afraid.

i am afraid to give too much of me,

too soon.

i am afraid of not knowing someone’s past and even more frightened to know what our future holds. i am the type of person who is always running. i found myself to be really good at walking away before everything gets too deep — even better at becoming curious once we are only for each other. i am so afraid of being stuck. the in-between. the middle. the unknown. all of it. i am not anyone’s type. i am not really sure i am the kind of person who anyone wants in longevity — and whenever i find myself in a situation that someone may hurt me, i protect myself. my heart. the only way i know how to — to leave. to figure out the in-between some more and to stop being afraid.

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